As the New Year begins I want to finally get on top of writing "my blog". To start off I am not the biggest fan of blogging especially just personal blogging where one writes emotion after emotion. One because it can be a mind game and two because its intense. But I am inspired to do so. However my goal is to keep family and friends updated on things taking place in my life; which revolves around the Lord Jesus Christ (so I am hoping too that this can serve as a witnessing tool). I have recently applied to do an Internship with the campus ministry
RUF (Reformed University Fellowship) and I hope to use this as an outlet to inform people who partner with me financially, in prayer and encouragement. Although I am unsure of how or when or where the internship will work out to be, if God allows, I want to take a moment to share why I have chosen to pursue this avenue after 4 years of college education.
I spent the past summer of 2008 doing an internship in India. Many things led to my making this decision. I wanted to travel. I wanted to experience something new and different. I wanted to lend my time to those who were in need of it. I wanted to go to India. So I went under the impression I would find a great love and passion for those living there; especially the orphaned and those with HIV/AIDS (as those were the people we were reaching out to). While I did enjoy my time a great deal; learning a new language, exploring new land, making friends, helping to change lives. But what I found amongst those also volunteering, and all from western countries, was the fact that they were far from knowing the gospel. Just as much as those who worshiped the statues in the streets and the cows meandering, these friends I made had not take the time to define their own beliefs or discovering truth in this world. It was on this trip that I realized as much as there is a need for missions aboard, and as much as I have a heart for that, there was a need for missions at home. I found myself knowing that the need for Christ to be preached and people to be reached in the U.S. was just as great, especially amongst people around my age.
As I have experienced college is a time of questioning, answering, discovering, uncovering, learning, growing and deciding who we are in this bizarre world. I have come to know Christ more and more through the
RUF at my campus, but even more importantly God used it as an avenue to encourage me to become more involved in ministering, just as we all are called to do. I have a desire to do good things that are pleasing and glorifying to the Lord. I love serving at the Pregnancy Resource Center, my church and
RUF. To extend this opportunity to my full time attention for the next chapter in my life is something I have spent much time in prayer about. I believe that this opportunity will grow me in Christ, grow my mind in wisdom, grow my heart in compassion, grow my mouth in boldness and having me understanding ministry to its fullest. I look forward to the opportunity to embrace those who are in situations that I was also once in. To embrace hard questions on the college campus of today, to see students brought to Christ, while growing those whom already trust in him to boldness and faithfulness is what I am excited about.
I end with this quick, possibly cheesy thought......... While catching up with old friends over the holiday season we discussed peoples ability to fall in and out of love. And with "man" it is possible to lose that '
lovin feelin'. In this world our desires, our lusts, our emotions fade in and out. But knowing Christ is such a greater love than these. He never leaves me. He never
deceives me. He sees to it that I am being perfected. He reveals my
flaws and presents opportunities to make them right in him. He comforts me. He speaks to me through his word. He provides for me. He is the greatest love I have ever experienced. To share that is what our lives are for.